I looked back at what I wrote yesterday and realise how boring having no money is.

Sorry- how boring it has made me.

I spend my time fussing and getting frustrated with myself over stupid costs.

Planning my day- how I'm going to eat lunch and travel- it's taking all the fun out of life.

I'm boring my flat mates and work colleagues and family and work contacts and anyone else I talk to, going on and on...

Saying things like "that train fare cost bla bla bla.."

I'm so sorry to all of you.

I can't help it- I become fixated on these things.

Apart from anything, I can't afford to do much else at the moment other than eat and go to work.

Rather than just preserving what I've got I need to make more money...

Not in a greedy way, just to make life a little more comfortable.